Friday, January 21, 2011

Even Better

Well, I'm sitting here, deciding that I'm going to blog, but I have no clue what to call this one! I want to call it the same thing as my last one because I'm truly living a good life right now. Oh well. I'll think of something as this comes along.

Life = good. I'm still reading my Bible daily learning more and more about the Old Testament and God's work in the lives of Abraham, Isaac and their descendants. It's great reading about what happens to them and then still knowing that He never left their sides. It gives me comfort in knowing that He will never leave my side.

Lately, in reading some people's blogs. I see people usually either try to update daily or weekly with their progress in something. I can't decide if mine should be used for running purposes or to talk about what I've learned through my readings each day or what.. I just don't know.. I guess for now I'll just keep talking about my awesome life!

This past week has been great for me! In all aspects. Let's break this down..
1. My readings have been going great as I already stated.. Yeah, guess I gave the update for that up there ^ with what I'm reading and learning about.

2. Things with Haley are just great! We've been pretty busy this week, but both understanding and have kept contact at least.. unlike the disaster that was last week. I'm looking forward to a great weekend with her which will hopefully also include some Local Culture (this awesome frozen yogurt place here in good 'ole Starkville).

3. Running! My love is making a comeback! haha After a long 2 months pretty much of either doing nothing or not enough to get any sort of fitness, it's finally coming back! Progress is all I care about right now. I'm not looking to be the best on the team or anything like that. I just want to run. I want to not feel pain. I want to feel fit. Then I can worry about some intensity and quality workouts. This week was the first workout that I ran faster than my coach anticipated me to run based on my very slow come back it seems.
The work out was as follows:

Full warmup (2 miles, stretching, drills, extended run, couple of strides)
Mile - 5:03 (schedule said: 5:15-5:20)
4 Mile tempo - 21:50 (schedule said: 22:00-23:00)
Mile - 5:05 (schedule said: 5:15-5:20)
Cool down (2 miles)

I would say this was finally a good workout! Granted the other guys on the team were going like 4:40's and their 4 miler was in the 20 minute range, but I don't really care. They ran right around the times that they were suppose to - maybe a little faster - but I feel like I dominated the workout given to me and I know that one day (hopefully soon) I will be up there with them as my fitness is still coming back! I know I'm capable of much more. It was only 2 weeks ago that my 4 mile was 22:10 at it's fastest and I was dying. On another note, running/eating go hand in hand. I'll admit I did kinda freak out about what was going into my body over Christmas break and maybe a little before. Some of this may stem from having a girlfriend with ED, and then the rest is just my stupid brain. I guess I felt like when I really just wanted to eat 10 cookies that she would judge me, heck I judged myself at that point. Granted, probably no one should eat 10 cookies at a time, but I just really do not give a crap anymore. I mean some things are still disgusting to me for health reasons, but when I'm walking by the desserts in the school cafeteria, if I want a cookie then gosh darn it, I'm getting one. If I don't want one then good, but most days I would like just 1 to go with my meal. What's the harm in that? Especially since now I'm running full workouts and burning it off. I may have gone a little too far in the other direction earlier this week because the other day I think I have a cinnamon roll with breakfast, maybe 1 cookie at lunch, 2 before dinner and 1 after dinner haha. Well, I just tell myself: "At least I enjoyed them!" I'm not freaking out about it or anything. I just might slow it down a little because I still really do want that 6 pack one day. hahah

I feel like this is long enough. I hope any of my readers have had as great of a week as I have and that we all have another great week next week!

Monday, January 17, 2011

The Good Life

10 days. Really Conrad? Come on. haha
Well, nothing much has really happened. I finally feel like I'm living my life with the right priorities, though. School has been good without being too overwhelming. I've been eating whatever I want and not thinking twice about it. Running is going better. Still not where I want to be, but at least I'm seeing progress. 2 Saturdays ago, we ran a 4 mile time trial that I did in 22:10. Not good. That was all I could have done. On Saturday though I kept that pace for 7 miles! Sounds like improvement to me! Then today, I did 90 minutes averaging 6:29 pace and go about 14 miles in. That's the longest and fastest I've gone in a long time! It felt so good to be running with the guys.. doing exactly what they're doing and not feeling like absolute crap. However, a tendon on my left leg that has been bothering me hurt pretty bad when I finished and I can still feel how tight it is.. so I'm a little worried about tomorrow's run, but it should b fine! And if it's not, whatever.
My walk of faith is growing stronger every day. I'm still on track to read The Bible in a year. Some of this Old Testament is a little boring, but my Bible has some life lesson sections so I'm still learning things or being reminded of things in most cases. I read all of Job for the first time. Definitely very interesting to read about all the adversity he faced and learning how God will be there for me throughout all adversity and won't give me anything I can't handle and I just need to wait it out and trust him. This is exactly what I'm doing with running adversities right now. And so far, so good. I went to church Sunday. Wasn't crazy about the sermon, but I'm proud of myself for going and I'm definitely going more than I did last semester.

Friday, January 7, 2011

A Fresh Start

It's been way too long since I've posted on here. I don't have any readers though. I'm starting to wonder why I even have this thing. I'm not inspiring to people like my girlfriend. If I were just a random person coming across my blog, I certainly wouldn't follow it haha. Oh well, I guess I have a lot to update on!

1. This new year is going to be one to remember for sure! I am submersing my self with the Lord! I'm going to try to read The Bible in a year! This is definitely one of the most positive things I have going for me right now! I haven't been able to rely on much lately and the Lord is all I need anyways. I need to seriously work on my relationship with him before I can do any good in others' lives or even my own. I need to rearrange my priorities. I say this knowing that I live in sin. I hate that I live a sinful life, but who doesn't sin. Some things I've been reading the past couple days have said how the Lord will love us no matter what and he will never leave us. Even when we push him away. I don't want to push him away, ever again. I've also read about how the satan walks around just looking for someone to taunt and that I need to have the courage and faith to deny him when I am tempted. I've learned that I am not smart enough to make my own decisions or choose my path and that the Lord has already chosen it. This leads me to thinking about how decisions I make will change my life. Well, if I make them, I assume God knows I was going to make them and they will eventually teach me some lesson. I guess I will just have to face the consequences for my actions like my mother always tells me. If I choose to lie, cheat, or curse, I will be answering for it one day. If I choose to drink, I could be caught and punished. If I choose to have sex, I could wind up with a baby. Some of these consequences for sins are definitely more frightening than others,  but these are choices I will face and choices I will answer for one day and learn things from. I know that the Lord will never leave me through the decisions I make, but that certainly doesn't mean I should just flat out sin and be ok with it, right? I'll fight these battles within as they come. For now, all I want is for this hunger for more knowledge from God to continue.

2. My family is doing great, I guess. I should most certainly work on my relationships with them. I didn't even call my mother today. She's probably so sad. She's trying to eat healthy and exercise this year and lose some weight. I'm so proud of her and I will be praying every day that she continues it. My sister was accepted into her Graduate School of choice which is really exciting! It's so weird to see my sister in the real world. haha

3. My girlfriend... where do I even begin with her.. I haven't even talked much about her on here as a friend pointed out. Some boyfriend I am? Well, she's amazing, but definitely going through a hard time. Actually, I think every day is hard, probably even every hour. I can't imagine fighting an ED like she is. I HATE when it takes over her. It's like within one hour of her restricting her diet, I can tell this other "Haley" comes out and is totally not the girl I fell in love with. Sometimes this scares me for our future. We were talking about our future the other night. It's so weird to think I already have my life all planned out. Don't get me wrong, everything is pretty much exactly how I want it.. as good as it can be. It's just scary. Other guys I know don't even know what they want to be after college. They are focussed on the day ahead of them. I'm always thinking about the future. I've always been a little more mature in this sense than most other people my age though. (that sounded kinda prideful, something I just read tells me it is NOT a good thing). Anyways, I have a lot of respect for my girlfriend for everything she's been through. I'll love her no matter what. I can already hear those wedding vowels, and I certainly will love her in sickness or in health, for richer or for poorer.. and whatever the other traditional vowels are too haha I pretty much have already loved her through all these things.. So there is not a doubt in my mind that I would stand by her side through anything else.

4. School... is back in session. I love school. It's so weird. College is awesome though. I'm taking 20 hours this semester. Kinda a lot for someone like me. I'm definitely going to stay busy, unlike last semester. I am totally ok with this. I want to graduate in 3 years and if this is what it takes them I'm on board for the ride. I just really don't want to lose my 4.0.

5. Running. I don't even know where to begin. I LOVE IT. I'm practically obsessed. I want to be so great, but I suck right now. Getting back in shape after not running for almost a month and then only being able to do very little is not easy. I have my first workout with the team tomorrow morning. I'm kinda freaking out about it. I feel embarrassed. I'm nervous that my leg will start hurting half way through and I will be worse off than when I started. I want to feel stronger before I take something like this on. Today's run was amazing. I was a little winded afterwards, but it was a pretty good pace and the longest I've run in a while. I didn't have any pain either. Such a great day for me in the running world. I only hope that tomorrow goes just as well! This is the part of my life that I have definitely turned over to God. He has a plan for me with running. He had me injured over Christmas for a reason. It was probably because I was becoming so obsessed that I needed to stop. I just hate that it took me so long to realize this. Even with this minor leg pain, if it's hurting, it's hurting for a reason. Whatever it is, I don't know, but I honestly will not worry over it any more. I believe greatness is in my future thanks to Him and if it includes running then so be it! If not, then tough luck, it'll be something else!

 I guess I should go get some rest for this workout in the morning though! I think this post was long enough anyway!